The Many Face of Rolando
So I started thinking today...who really knows me? I realize that many people know me a little bit, but few if any know me as a whole. There are quite a few Rolands that dwell within:
Rolando: The male born almost 29 years ago, of Mexican descent, raised to work hard and excel, because he should not expect anybody to hand him anything in life. He was always the nerd through school, fairly sheltered, never allowed to have too many friends, but always managed to be lovestruck by girls whose names started with A…(never understood it either!) He acquired his love for music, song, and poetry in his later years.
Roland (BS degree): Fairly quiet and reserved, his friends were the friends of friends. He tried many different things in his time, made many acquaintances, but very few if any real friends. Everywhere he tried to fit in he could only linger in. He learned to just blend and observe the environment around him. Roland worked hard and multiple jobs at once. He had his first romantic relationships here, but they fizzled out quickly. Towards the end he suffered through great depression, but made it out by the Grace of God and the friends and family He placed around him.
Roland (MS degree): much like his predecessor, but no longer driven to excel for his father, but himself. By this time he was becoming a more accomplished bass player, had closer friends and friends whom he saw as family. He had a few more relationships, but all burned down to the ground. Again, this Roland fell through depression at the end of his time, mostly through the insecurity of his future.
Roland (work): Give all he can, then give some more, willing to do anything and everything set before him, and to do it well. He loves to work but often times hates the work, but does it to the best of his abilities. He strives to make the lives of those around him better, easier, and happier, even within his own misery. He’s known as the office prankster, but also as a reliable and knowledgeable individual that you can come to vent to, just talk, or come to for aid – even at the eleventh hour.
Roland (bass): drafted into the position he has today, he learned to play guitar long before bass. His style is a variation of jazz, funk, and blues. Told once by a friend that he was “a disgruntled guitar player stuck playing bass” for his use of the entire fretboard, he does not limit the instrument to a support instrument but makes it a soloist. He tries to play skillfully, yet tastefully. He strives to be one with his percussionist and make a seamless unison in beat.
Roland (church and outside friends): Known as a fairly upbeat individual, he prefers small groups to get to know people over large groups, making himself available for whatever is needed of him, and being a servant to those that need to be served. He has a desire to increase the intimacy of his relationship with god, while striving to live a Christ-like life (despite the many stumbles). For the most part a semi-mature individual, he admittedly has not given up his childish ways of speeding.
The real Roland is an introverted individual who seeks to be in relationship, to have companionship, friendship, and closeness with another human being in life. He enjoys trying to serve those close to him. He longs to find a partner to spend time with, get to know mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, to cook for, to rest and relax with, to listen to when they need to vent, to hold when they need a hug, to just be there when they need love. He wants somebody to grow with in Christ, who shares the desires of God’s heart with them, somebody to grow old together with. Roland seeks happiness, not financial, nor through social status, but happiness in all areas of his life. Though potentially a complex individual, his basic need is to love.
Now if a certain someone could see that and give the real Roland a chance, the complexity may finally be resolved.
Rolando: The male born almost 29 years ago, of Mexican descent, raised to work hard and excel, because he should not expect anybody to hand him anything in life. He was always the nerd through school, fairly sheltered, never allowed to have too many friends, but always managed to be lovestruck by girls whose names started with A…(never understood it either!) He acquired his love for music, song, and poetry in his later years.
Roland (BS degree): Fairly quiet and reserved, his friends were the friends of friends. He tried many different things in his time, made many acquaintances, but very few if any real friends. Everywhere he tried to fit in he could only linger in. He learned to just blend and observe the environment around him. Roland worked hard and multiple jobs at once. He had his first romantic relationships here, but they fizzled out quickly. Towards the end he suffered through great depression, but made it out by the Grace of God and the friends and family He placed around him.
Roland (MS degree): much like his predecessor, but no longer driven to excel for his father, but himself. By this time he was becoming a more accomplished bass player, had closer friends and friends whom he saw as family. He had a few more relationships, but all burned down to the ground. Again, this Roland fell through depression at the end of his time, mostly through the insecurity of his future.
Roland (work): Give all he can, then give some more, willing to do anything and everything set before him, and to do it well. He loves to work but often times hates the work, but does it to the best of his abilities. He strives to make the lives of those around him better, easier, and happier, even within his own misery. He’s known as the office prankster, but also as a reliable and knowledgeable individual that you can come to vent to, just talk, or come to for aid – even at the eleventh hour.
Roland (bass): drafted into the position he has today, he learned to play guitar long before bass. His style is a variation of jazz, funk, and blues. Told once by a friend that he was “a disgruntled guitar player stuck playing bass” for his use of the entire fretboard, he does not limit the instrument to a support instrument but makes it a soloist. He tries to play skillfully, yet tastefully. He strives to be one with his percussionist and make a seamless unison in beat.
Roland (church and outside friends): Known as a fairly upbeat individual, he prefers small groups to get to know people over large groups, making himself available for whatever is needed of him, and being a servant to those that need to be served. He has a desire to increase the intimacy of his relationship with god, while striving to live a Christ-like life (despite the many stumbles). For the most part a semi-mature individual, he admittedly has not given up his childish ways of speeding.
The real Roland is an introverted individual who seeks to be in relationship, to have companionship, friendship, and closeness with another human being in life. He enjoys trying to serve those close to him. He longs to find a partner to spend time with, get to know mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, to cook for, to rest and relax with, to listen to when they need to vent, to hold when they need a hug, to just be there when they need love. He wants somebody to grow with in Christ, who shares the desires of God’s heart with them, somebody to grow old together with. Roland seeks happiness, not financial, nor through social status, but happiness in all areas of his life. Though potentially a complex individual, his basic need is to love.
Now if a certain someone could see that and give the real Roland a chance, the complexity may finally be resolved.
posted by El Guapo at 9:02 PM
1 Comments:
I have met the outside Rolando, and am getting to know better the many faceted inner Rolando. :) There is more to us all than the surface, if we would just take the time and effort to look.
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