Horrible time of year to just give up....

But I did. I came in pretty happy today to work, then I got on myspace to check things out. I saw my ex with her new guy. She looked really happy. I am glad for her, but saddened that our friendship just thins out more and more the closer she gets to him. YEah - I miss her. Especially this time of year. Part of me just still hasn't let go, but is glad for all the things going well in her life. I'm just not a significant part of that anymore.

I shut down my MySpace shortly thereafter.

I was then reminded why I went to a job interview for yesterday (which I was under qualified for, but overqualified at the same time). Even by asking for 7K less a year than I make now they were kringing at my offer. I've given in to the fact that I'm no longer as qualified as I used to be in what I want to do and perfectly qualified in what I thought was going to simply be a transitional phase in my career.

I'm stuck at this job unless I quit for at minimum 10K less a year.

I went from riding a bumpy road this morning to just careening out of control down a steep rocky incline with my handlebars coming apart and my brakes fading.

"the sun will rise and I'll be walking on, the wind will blow wherever it wants, and I'll be holding on" is the line of "Along the way" by Seven Places.

I'm just holding on.

Driving back from my interview yesterday I had a fun little talk with God. I just gave up caring. Whatever HE does is what'll happen.

I should be rejoicful, and I am - to an extent. Then the other extent just tells me "Go get lost in Dubai and find yourself!"

Merry Christnmas guys - We celebrate a savior being born to even go after this sheep that is wanting to start roaming again.